Friday, April 11, 2008

crumble.
applecrumble.

misconceptions are the no.1 killers.
and the look in someone's eyes that
can already tell that you've been judged.
all the bloody stereotypes.

what a terrible wk.
an extent that today was the last straw.
and it broke.
aside from the premonitions of death i'm having again,
the nightmares, not as bad until i could hear my heart in my ear,
but still. what is wrong.
and to add on, i am invisible at home, uhm.
not looking forward to sch reopen,
bad news from sch, not meeting expectations,
blemishes are back, mental tortures,
lack of sleep, stucknosephlegmcough,
tried to swim but the water stinks, so no exercise either,
maybe all this is just the equivalent of a bad wk.
ROARRRR.
what's wrong with me.
things just in a flash seems to go all haywire
and out of my way.

the hope that things will get better fades.
but then again, what else will there be but
to force ourselves to hope again.
that's all there is to a new day.
that it would be better.
and everything would go back to normal.
nevermind.

i will still be hoping.
everyday's a new day anyway.
its hard to smile. but i will.
(x